I'm sitting in one of my favorite spots - in front of the heater. Growing up, I had the bedroom directly over the heater in the basement. So, the heat register in my room had the warmest and most forceful flow of air. I spent many a minute sitting on the heater, soaking up the warmth before it could get into the house. Always a sad moment when it would click off; the air would get colder and then the air flow turned off. Comforting memories.
What a lazy weekend this has been with Miguel: Lebanese food at Ya Halla (fantastic restaurant) for Friday dinner, downtown farmer's market, walking up in the NWst and looking in shops on 23rd - not our usual activity together since neither of us are shoppers, spur of the moment Mexican lunch, Wordstock at the Convention Center and listening to Harry Shearer (many voices in the Simpsons), lentil-pumpkin soup for dinner, watching Falling (recent Austrian film about 5 women in their early 30s meeting after many years at the funeral of a beloved teacher). Then going for a short run together this morning. It has been a good weekend, good time together. Reaffirming that even though there will be challenges to being together, we are good together. We get along well, understand each other, are never bored in each other's company, always have conversation topics. I believe we truly are soul mates.
My dad knows to some degree about our relationship. I haven't spoken with my mother about it ... yet. I keep saying that I need to tell her but obviously haven't. Given everything that has gone on with her and my dad these past several months, I think she might be in a more receptive state to really hear me. I'm just scared about the possibility of her rejection. Recently I've tried to put the intention out into the universe that she will at least be supportive.
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I think you should bite the bullet and tell her. Because I honestly believe that the anticipation and the worry about her probable reaction is more stressful than whatever her actual reaction will be. And it will be such a relief once she finally knows and you won't have to stress about how she will react etc.
And if I were in this situation, I would probably take the easy way out......write a letter. Slightly less confrontational. But then everything you want to say and feel is out on the table without interruption. Then there is time for her to process the information before you have the conversation, etc.
But of course.....that's just my two cents. And really, what do I know?
PS I was a heater hog too.
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